Summer Afternoon in Ohio
by Riverwatch
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No lightening, of course, or my excitement would twist into anxiety, an easy turn for me.
The low-slung clouds shift even lower giving the Ohio wind a dramatic boost our way.
“Hey!
Ain't this great?” shouts Markie, waving his stick in the wind.
“Hell”,
muses Carolyn cautiously. She, being the oldest sibling and
self-deceived about the importance of her role within our small
group, tries to decide whether to proceed further on our woodland
hike and risk a cloud burst, or whether to turn back home to a boring
summer afternoon.
Naturally
Carolyn does not discuss the workings of her mind with me and Markie.
This top-dog-isolation is part and parcel of her straight-A-student
aura.
That
is OK, her not needing our brain power. She
will not try to turn us back. Now that I am 13 and Markie
is 12, we are much harder to influence. No power struggles have ever
ensued among us. Carolyn's
decision-making power only means she will be the target for the
fall-out from any choices we make this day. She does not have the
power of choice.
Markie
and I have the real
power, the power to remain blameless.
So
we go deeper into the darkening green of the woods. Youth swirls
around us like an energy field, cleansing our blood for purer oxygen
uptake, stretching our nerves to the transparency of fairy wings,
clearing parental voices from our heads, and erasing all thoughts of
failure. We are alive with hope.
Markie
promptly runs off to the left and disappears beyond the crest of a
mossy ravine. Carolyn watches, unsmiling and mute.
I
imagine Riley coming over the out-cropped rock to the right.
Accidentally, of course. I imagine his surprise, his yummy smile of
gladness to bump into me! Darlene is not with him, of course.
Markie
returns, bored without his female audience. “Hurry up!” he
commands us. My reverie ends abruptly but the wind hugs me firmly in
my sudden feeling of aloneness.
Carolyn
turns her back on Markie, knowing some personal power exists in
denying him audience.
She
trudges straight ahead.
Markie
snarls his face silently at her departing back. I laugh and he
relaxes, good humor restored. We follow slowly behind our sister.
“Nathan
Frost likes you”, Markie offers by way of conversation.
How
has my brother figured out my crush on Nathan? I am mortified. I
say nothing.
“Really,”
he doggedly pursues.
I
still say nothing, and I hurry ahead to catch up with Carolyn.
Riley, not Nathan, is the one I allow to walk softly through my dreams. Riley is a
wounded young man, a lonely only child, somewhat abandoned by his
father in the horrid heart-wrenching aftermath of his mom's
untimely and sudden death.
I
love feeling sorry for Riley.
Nathan,
on the other hand, completely scrambles me.
Nathan
is athletic, scholastic, class leader and likes everybody. Even
walking beside him makes me mute but I do love walking beside him!
But
this is my business and is none of Markie's business and furthermore,
I do not like the fact that I sometimes see Nathan talking to my
younger brother!
Just
then the skies open up on us! The cloudburst is sudden though not
without warning.
The forest trees offer no protection whatsoever. Carolyn has already turned back towards home and Markie and I follow her but in front of her.
“Get moving!” she orders as small rivers of water begin cascading down the hill.
The forest trees offer no protection whatsoever. Carolyn has already turned back towards home and Markie and I follow her but in front of her.
“Get moving!” she orders as small rivers of water begin cascading down the hill.
Markie
breaks into a run.
Carolyn
breaks into a run.
I do not feel like running, especially after them.
The
rain is stinging my face and arms. Suddenly Carolyn and Markie
outdistance me and disappear. Now I feel like running.
Finally
the cloudburst is over but we are soaked, muddy and still panting
heavily as we straggle up the graveled path to home.
Carolyn
climbs the steps to the porch. Mom is standing in the doorway with
arms folded. Carolyn speaks as an adult to Mom. “Some of your
children are idiots.”
Mom
does not correct her.
“Markie
is the real idiot”,
I say for no apparent reason as I pass Mom.
Markie
grins. “Did I tell you Nathan
loves Betsy?
He likes you.
He loves
Betsy.”
“Serves
all-you-all right”, Mom says matter-of-factly, looking at our
plight. “I told all-you-all not to go.”
Who
cares whether Mom cares or not. It doesn't matter. Nathan
loves Betsy.